Fell Off

I haven’t written in too long. The cold weather in Ohio puts me in a certain mood.  My creative side gets shut down even though I’m spending most of my time inside (whether it be in a bar, work, or my apartment).  I have, however been working more than usual and making bank when I do, for this I credit my forced happy-go-lucky facade.

In the past, I’ve been my real self at work; insecure and grumpy.  I’ve learned that it’s not that difficult to put on a smile and ask about things I have virtually no interest in.  Men are strange creatures.  It’s 100% worth it to put in the extra work both physically and emotionally, “fake it ’till you make it” was something I’ve always preached but never really practiced.  Everyone loves talking about themselves, so if I can provide that outlet I can truly have a symbiotic relationship with my customers. I’m not sure when “divorce season” is, but I have a feeling it’s in the fall because that subject has topped the charts for a while.  I still blank sometimes on what to ask or say to my customers but I don’t think it’s completely my fault. Even being the outgoing, giggly and lewd Jane, I will undoubtedly run into one customer a night who refuses to let me brighten their day. I don’t have the time or energy to deal with this hypothetical individual, so I walk away hopeful for a rich man to fall in love with me.

So, in short, I’ve had a lucrative and enjoyable month. I’ll be posting more blogs soon as I am forcing myself to stay connected.  Thank you all, xoxoxo.

 

-jane.

New Club/ Treat Yourself

I did end up going to a new club in my area on Thursday because of the situation(s) at my home club.  Like I said, I expected it to be nerve-wracking and I really didn’t think any of the girls would be nice to me.  I had this is my head because of the places I have travelled to and how I’ve been treated.  First off, the management at this new place fucking hates the owner of my home club so I think they were just happy to steal me.

I’ve always known that your attitude toward the girls plays a huge role in how you’re going to do in a new environment.  I’ve never seen such black-and-white reactions though; when I was smiling and being personable, the girls actually seemed like they at least gave a shit enough to answer compared to how I am when Im nervous and shy.  That helped tremendously.

I ended up meeting girls who’ve worked with me before at other clubs, which usually plays in everyone’s favor… unless that girl never liked you and was fired from your home club. I got a taste of both.

 

TREAT YO’SELF:

Last night, my sister was leaving for the night and I decided to take a break and rest my body.  I didn’t want to just sit around my house, so I looked up  “sushi restaurants near me”, put on some makeup and put on some clothes that I’ve wanted to wear for a while but have no real reason to, and drove my happy ass to get some sushi.  Since I was alone and the place was pretty busy, they had me move over a seat at the sushi bar. I didn’t get angry or anything, actually the couple ended up being really friendly and down to Earth. They even let me try their curry (which was delicious but I was stuffed after a huge meal and dessert).  After a few glasses of wine, I decided that my evening was n’t over. I ended up going to the movie theater alone and watching Boss Baby.  It was fucking adorable, literally babies competing with puppies.

It was a great night. I’ll wrap that up with a word of advice: go to a restaurant in some cute clothes (or whatever you would consider a date), drink some wine, maybe see a movie, go home and masturbate. You will not be disappointed.

 

~shiva